When people ask me how it's going with Lilly in daycare, I usually say "OK." Today, I could say that I didn't even cry when I dropped her off. I know I'll get used to it but.... it's not easy. When I dropped her off today, I was walking up the sidewalk to the day care provider's house. It was like I was on a moving sidewalk. My feet were somehow taking me to the door. I just wanted to take her home.
What really gets me is seeing the empty car seat in the back window (the picture is of what I see in the driver's seat--looking at her rear facing car seat).
Lilly is staying home with me on Friday. I'll have to go every day all day starting Monday. I feel like I'm going to miss so much of her growing up. What if she learns to walk at daycare? Will her first word be at daycare? I know I'll adjust, but that doesn't make it any easier right now. And even though I'll adjust, doesn't change the fact that I'm going to miss so much of her growing up and I'll be busy/tired/stressed during a lot of the time I do have with her. It'll all work out. It has to. I don't have a choice... My "sweethearts" need me and we have a mortgage to pay.
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